\u201cYollar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fc de a\u00e7\u0131k. Ama \u00fc\u00e7 vade i\u00e7inde en sonuncusu i\u00e7in bir \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131 alacaks\u0131n. \u0130\u015fte bunu beklemen gerekiyor. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu haberi al\u0131p da yola koyuldu\u011fun anda b\u00fct\u00fcn o y\u00fcrek kabart\u0131s\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar sona erecek. Bak istersen, bak y\u00fcre\u011fin ikiye ayr\u0131l\u0131yor, aras\u0131ndan bir g\u00fcne\u015f do\u011fuyor. Bir yan\u0131 puslu, di\u011fer yan\u0131 ayd\u0131nl\u0131k bir y\u00fcre\u011fin var. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc yolu se\u00e7ersen dile\u011fin bir anda yerine gelecek; t\u00fcm s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lardan kurtulacaks\u0131n. Bir kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine gireceksin. Burada senden \u00e7ok s\u00f6z ediliyor. Baz\u0131 \u015feyleri kendine saklamazsan, kar\u015f\u0131na dikilmi\u015f \u015fu iki ki\u015fi i\u00e7tenli\u011fini k\u00f6t\u00fcye kullanacak. Bak, \u015furada perdelerin arkas\u0131nda iki g\u00f6lge, biri erkek biri di\u015fi\u2026 Onlarla i\u00e7li d\u0131\u015fl\u0131 olmazsan feraha kavu\u015facaks\u0131n\u201d diyerek kahve fincan\u0131n\u0131 masaya b\u0131rakt\u0131 Hale Han\u0131m. \u00a0Bu kez taba\u011f\u0131 ald\u0131, telveyi fincana iyice silkelerken torununu g\u00f6zl\u00fcklerinin \u00fcst\u00fcnden sevgiyle s\u00fczerek, \u201cBir de hanende neler olup bitecek ona bakal\u0131m\u201c derken g\u00f6zlerini tabakta kalan izlere \u00e7evirdi, \u201cEvin tertemiz, ayd\u0131nl\u0131k. Kocanla aran\u0131zda bir so\u011fukluk var, ama her \u015fey k\u0131sa s\u00fcrede yoluna girecek. O koca kafal\u0131 damad\u0131m\u0131z, sonunda akl\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na dev\u015firecek, senin k\u0131ymetini bilecek,\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
Fal\u0131n bak\u0131lmas\u0131 bitti\u011finde, Nesrin, \u201cA\u011fz\u0131na sa\u011fl\u0131k Nineci\u011fim,\u201d diye Hale Han\u0131m\u0131n boynuna sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u201c Nas\u0131l da g\u00f6rd\u00fcn; ta i\u00e7imi okudun valla! Yeni bir i\u015f buldum, \u00dc\u00e7yol\u2019daki b\u00fcy\u00fck bir i\u015f merkezinde tan\u0131t\u0131m y\u00f6netmenli\u011fi yapaca\u011f\u0131m!\u201d<\/p>\n
Nineyle torun, g\u00fcn batarken pencereden i\u00e7eri dolan ilkyaz serinli\u011fi \u00fcrpertene kadar kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131kl\u0131 oturmu\u015flar; Hale Han\u0131m\u2019\u0131n tek \u00e7ocu\u011fu Ye\u015fim\u2019i do\u011furdu\u011fu y\u0131llara, ge\u00e7mi\u015fe do\u011fru mutlu bir yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015flard\u0131. G\u00fcne\u015f iyice al\u00e7al\u0131nca, kar\u015f\u0131 duvar\u0131 kaplayan, mermer konsolun \u00fcst\u00fcne s\u0131ralanm\u0131\u015f say\u0131s\u0131z foto\u011fraf \u00e7er\u00e7evesinde patlayan bir yans\u0131ma ikisinin de\u00a0 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ald\u0131. Nesrin bu foto\u011fraflarda boy g\u00f6sterenlerin \u00e7o\u011funu tan\u0131m\u0131yordu. Dedesi, k\u00f6\u015feye do\u011fru as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7er\u00e7evenin i\u00e7inden, \u00fcst\u00fcnde asker giysileriyle gen\u00e7lik \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 sa\u00e7arak g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu. Oysa \u00e7ocuklu\u011fundan kalan an\u0131lar\u0131nda Mustafa \u015eevki Bey, ancak f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131yla konu\u015fabilen, y\u00fcr\u00fcmekte g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fck \u00e7eken; ama dudaklar\u0131nda s\u00fcrekli sevecen bir g\u00fcl\u00fcc\u00fck ta\u015f\u0131yan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam olarak yer etmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Nesrin\u2019in annesi Ye\u015fim, ger\u00e7ek\u00e7i olmakla \u00f6v\u00fcnen bir kad\u0131nd\u0131. Hale Han\u0131m\u2019la uzun uzad\u0131ya oturup, ge\u00e7mi\u015ften konu\u015fmaya, onun d\u00fc\u015flerini yorumlamaya art\u0131k dayanam\u0131yordu.\u00a0 Eskisi gibi ya\u015fl\u0131 annesine sevgi de g\u00f6stermiyor, gereksinmelerini kar\u015f\u0131lamakla, al\u0131\u015f-veri\u015fini yapmakla yetiniyordu. Ge\u00e7enlerde k\u0131z\u0131 Nesrin\u2019in i\u015fyerine u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda b\u0131kk\u0131nl\u0131kla, annesinin sevecen g\u00f6sterilerin ard\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131p, bencilli\u011fini artt\u0131rarak s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yleyivermi\u015fti. Nesrin ise, her f\u0131rsat buldu\u011funda anneannesini g\u00f6rmeye giderdi. Ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fama s\u0131k\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131ya sar\u0131lmas\u0131, ona kendisinin de ileri ya\u015flar\u0131nda ayn\u0131 direnci g\u00f6sterece\u011finin g\u00fcvencesi gibi gelirdi; k\u0131van\u00e7la donan\u0131rd\u0131. Annesinin tepkisini de anlam\u0131yor de\u011fildi. \u00c7ocuklu\u011fundan bu yana ninesi onun tek s\u0131rda\u015f\u0131 olmu\u015ftu. Murat\u2019\u0131 da \u00f6nce ninesiyle tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, annesinin evlenmesini onaylamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnden, bu ili\u015fkiyi gizlemi\u015flerdi. O zamanlar ninesinin, ya\u015f\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131n annesiyle babas\u0131na g\u00f6re daha \u00e7a\u011fda\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceli oldu\u011funa inanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Nesrin\u2019in ba\u015f\u0131nda kavak yelleri esiyor, ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 kendi ba\u015f\u0131na kurma iste\u011finin \u00f6n\u00fcndeki t\u00fcm engelleri kald\u0131rmak istiyordu. \u015eimdi her \u015fey \u00f6ylesine bir h\u0131zla ge\u00e7mi\u015fe s\u00fcr\u00fckleniyordu ki, bu ak\u0131\u015f onda gelece\u011fi kurgulamak i\u00e7in bir g\u00fc\u00e7 k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 bile b\u0131rakm\u0131yordu. Murat\u2019la d\u00f6rt y\u0131l \u00f6nce evlenmi\u015flerdi. Kocas\u0131n\u0131n o ya\u015fam co\u015fkusu birden t\u00fckenmi\u015fti. Mutsuzlu\u011funu \u00e7evresine da\u011f\u0131tan; \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerde de ge\u00e7imsizli\u011fi, huysuzlu\u011fu y\u00fcz\u00fcnden sevilmeyen biri olup \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00d6nceleri onun anlatt\u0131klar\u0131na inan\u0131rd\u0131 Nesrin. Murat, i\u015fyerinde her sorunu \u00e7\u00f6zd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc anlat\u0131r, yak\u0131nda b\u00f6lge y\u00f6neticisi olaca\u011f\u0131ndan s\u00f6z ederdi. Ne var ki, ge\u00e7enlerde g\u00f6zleri dolarak i\u015ften \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131lmaktan korktu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyivermi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
Ye\u015fim matematik \u00f6\u011fretmeniydi. Ellili ya\u015flar\u0131na gelince emeklili\u011fini istemi\u015fti. S\u0131navlara haz\u0131rlanan \u00f6\u011frencilere evinde ders vermeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kocas\u0131 bu durumdan olduk\u00e7a tedirgindi. Eve d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde kap\u0131da kar\u015f\u0131lanmay\u0131 beklerken, kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bir ya da iki \u00f6\u011frencisiyle oturma odas\u0131ndaki masan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yor bulurdu.<\/p>\n
Hale Han\u0131m o gece can\u0131ndan \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi torununu, ona bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 fal\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek uykuya dald\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ini bo\u015faltan bir \u00e7arp\u0131nt\u0131yla uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda daha g\u00fcn a\u011farmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yata\u011f\u0131ndan g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fckle do\u011fruldu, ba\u015fucundan eksik etmedi\u011fi dilalt\u0131nda eriyen haplar\u0131ndan bir tane al\u0131p a\u011fz\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130dare lambas\u0131n\u0131n lo\u015f ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fcyen g\u00f6lgesi hantall\u0131\u011f\u0131yla bir an i\u00e7in onu \u00fcrk\u00fctt\u00fc. Yeniden uzand\u0131, yorgan\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekti… Bir ses duymak iste\u011fiyle kendi kendine m\u0131r\u0131ldanmaya ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n
\u201cAh! Ne g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlerdi: Karde\u015flerim, annemle babam, halam o b\u00fcy\u00fck evde bir sevgi halesi i\u00e7indeydik. Bu yalan d\u00fcnyay\u0131 b\u0131rak\u0131p gittiler. Bir ba\u015f\u0131ma kald\u0131m. Ben evlendikten sonra da hemen kar\u015f\u0131 sokakta bir ev kiralam\u0131\u015f, onlardan ayr\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fmemi\u015ftim. Her g\u00fcn ayr\u0131 tatlar yarat\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 mutfa\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda. Uzun y\u0131llar kendi evimde oca\u011fa bir kap olsun yemek s\u00fcrmedim. \u015eimdi k\u0131z\u0131m da, torunum da kendi dertlerinde. Hep ak\u0131llar\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Ama \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 zamanlar\u0131 yokmu\u015f. Buna kar\u015f\u0131n beni yaln\u0131z b\u0131rak\u0131yorlar m\u0131ym\u0131\u015f, falan\u2026 Oysa haftada bir kez kap\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7alsalar amenna!\u201c<\/p>\n
Y\u00fcre\u011fine pen\u00e7esini ge\u00e7iren o s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 yava\u015f\u00e7a da\u011f\u0131l\u0131yordu. Birden az \u00f6nce g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc an\u0131msad\u0131: Ye\u015fim ilkokul \u00f6nl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcyle b\u00fcy\u00fck evin bah\u00e7esindeki havuzun kenar\u0131na \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f, ezberledi\u011fi \u015fiiri okuyordu. Durmadan i\u00e7eriye dolu\u015fan kalabal\u0131ktan ad\u0131m atacak yer kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hale Han\u0131m \u00fcst\u00fcndeki kombinezonla kalakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Utan\u00e7 i\u00e7inde g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerini elleriyle \u00f6rtmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, Ye\u015fim\u2019e ula\u015fmak i\u00e7in \u00f6n\u00fcnde kim varsa omuzlar\u0131yla iterek kendine yol a\u00e7\u0131yordu. Ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 kaplayan u\u011fultuya kar\u015f\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131, tekd\u00fcze bir hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015fla \u015fiirin anlams\u0131z dizelerini okumay\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmekteydi. Ye\u015fim\u2019i kucaklayarak buradan uzakla\u015fmak istiyordu. Kan-ter i\u00e7inde kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131na yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcslerini kavrayan avu\u00e7lar\u0131na \u0131l\u0131k bir ak\u0131nt\u0131n\u0131n doldu\u011funu duyumsad\u0131. G\u00f6\u011f\u00fcs u\u00e7lar\u0131 iyice b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, art\u0131k f\u0131\u015fk\u0131rmaya ba\u015flayan s\u00fct, kendine bir yatak a\u00e7arak havuzu doldurmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc neye yoraca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemedi. Torunuyla bile payla\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131 sonu belirsiz bir sa\u00e7mal\u0131kt\u0131 i\u015fte..<\/p>\n
Hale Han\u0131m, kutsal s\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u011f\u0131 sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131 aile \u00e7evresinde koca evreni kucaklamak istemi\u015fti. \u0130\u00e7indeki bolluk imgesini t\u00fcm insanl\u0131k i\u00e7in bu ya\u015flar\u0131na dek b\u00fcy\u00fctm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Sava\u015f haberlerini, cana k\u0131ymalar\u0131, yolsuzluklar\u0131 duymak bile istemiyor, iyimserli\u011fini s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in d\u00fc\u015flerinin yald\u0131zl\u0131 kozas\u0131na s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ramayaca\u011f\u0131 denli \u00e7ok say\u0131da ki\u015fiyi t\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yordu. Haftada bir evine yard\u0131ma gelen Pakize\u2019nin dert yanmalar\u0131n\u0131 dinlemekle yetinmeyip, onun b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0131s\u0131m akrabas\u0131na da kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131yordu. Ye\u015fim her u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bu kalabal\u0131ktan bunald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyince hep ayn\u0131 yan\u0131t\u0131 al\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cNe yapay\u0131m hepsi de beni \u00e7ok seviyor. Kiminin Hale Teyzesi, kiminin de Hale Ninesi oldum,\u201d diye keyifle g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyordu.<\/p>\n
Ya\u015fayamad\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131, k\u0131z\u0131 ya\u015fas\u0131n istemi\u015fti ama Ye\u015fim\u2019in dik ba\u015fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131yla ba\u015f edememi\u015fti. K\u0131z\u0131yla y\u0131ld\u0131zlar\u0131 hi\u00e7 bar\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Babas\u0131n\u0131n k\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131 i\u015fte\u2026 Kocas\u0131 da gelecek i\u00e7in kayg\u0131lan\u0131r; att\u0131\u011f\u0131 her ad\u0131mda, ard\u0131nda tedirginli\u011finin izlerini b\u0131rak\u0131rd\u0131. Hi\u00e7bir \u015feyi oluruna b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u015eimdi d\u00fc\u015flerini payla\u015fan bir torunu vard\u0131. Hep g\u00f6nl\u00fcnce ya\u015fayabilmesini istemi\u015fti Nesrin\u2019in. Ama her \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015fti. \u0130nsanlar art\u0131k umutlanmaktan yorulur olmu\u015f; toprak bile bereketini esirgemeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 sanki. Meyvelerin \u00f6zsulu, kokulu lezzeti kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcmleri i\u015ftah a\u00e7an zamane elmalar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7leri nas\u0131l saman gibi \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yorsa, Nesrin de, kocas\u0131 da bu elmalara benziyordu. Biraz hal-hat\u0131r sorup, s\u00f6z\u00fc uzatsa ikisinin de g\u00f6zlerinin i\u00e7inde tats\u0131z bir bo\u015fluk beliriveriyordu. \u0130\u015fte o zaman \u201d\u00c7ok uzun bir \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcrmek de pek matah bir \u015fey de\u011filmi\u015f,\u201d diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Bir yandan da \u201cYa\u015f\u0131na g\u00fcvenip, her konuda bilgi\u00e7lik taslayay\u0131m deme. Sak\u0131n ha! Baksana herkesi kendinden uzakla\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yorsun,\u201d diye s\u00f6ylenerek kendini uyar\u0131yordu. Birka\u00e7 zaman \u00f6nce \u00f6z k\u0131z\u0131 Ye\u015fim de, kendi ya\u015f\u0131na ba\u015f\u0131na bakmay\u0131p, gen\u00e7lerle y\u00fcz-g\u00f6z olmakla; torununu da anas\u0131ndan-babas\u0131ndan uzakla\u015ft\u0131rmakla su\u00e7lamam\u0131\u015f m\u0131yd\u0131 onu?<\/p>\n
\u201cAnne sen bu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n ko\u015fullar\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyorsun, kendi d\u00fc\u015flerinde ya\u015f\u0131yorsun. B\u0131rak art\u0131k ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n dertleriyle u\u011fra\u015fmay\u0131\u201c diye, \u00fcst\u00fc kapal\u0131 da olsa, her f\u0131rsatta kendisinden yak\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 belli etmekteydi.<\/p>\n
Hale Han\u0131m g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcndeki bask\u0131 biraz hafifleyince derin bir uykuya dalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kalk\u0131p da demli\u011fe su doldurdu\u011funda saate bakmak akl\u0131na geldi.<\/p>\n
O s\u0131rada Nesrin, 7.40 vapurunu ka\u00e7\u0131rmamak i\u00e7in soluk solu\u011fa ko\u015fuyordu. Halatlar at\u0131l\u0131rken son anda yeti\u015fti. Kendine gelmek i\u00e7in burundaki a\u00e7\u0131k b\u00f6l\u00fcmde bir yere oturdu. Murat yar\u0131m \u015fi\u015fe rak\u0131y\u0131 i\u00e7tikten sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn gece horuldad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in uyuyamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Aman ne horultuydu o! Evden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131ncaya dek uyand\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131ysa da kocas\u0131 yast\u0131ktan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131ramam\u0131\u015f, a\u011fz\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k, ayn\u0131 g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcyle uyumay\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. O da saati yeniden kurmu\u015f, kap\u0131y\u0131 \u00e7arparak \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kulakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 takt\u0131, m\u00fczik \u00e7alar\u0131na i\u015f yerindeki arkada\u015f\u0131 Taner\u2019in y\u00fckledi\u011fi, \u2019Arzular\u0131n topra\u011f\u0131nda sadakat yalan imi\u015f\/ Kararan yery\u00fcz\u00fcnde sevgi de \u00e7oktan talan edilmi\u015f,\u2019<\/em> diye masals\u0131 bir \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 dinlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131. B\u00f6ylelikle \u00f6fkesini yat\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordu. Poyraz\u0131n serin esintisine y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc vererek i\u00e7 ge\u00e7irdi. G\u00f6zleri dolmu\u015ftu. Bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131 k\u0131y\u0131dan y\u00fckselen g\u00fcne\u015fe dal\u0131p gitmi\u015fti. \u00c7ocuklu\u011funda annesiyle babas\u0131n\u0131n t\u00fcm isteklerini kar\u015f\u0131layabilecek g\u00fc\u00e7te olduklar\u0131na inan\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eimdi ikisi de kendisinden \u00f6ylesine uzakla\u015fm\u0131\u015flard\u0131 ki, onlarla iki s\u00f6z bile konu\u015fam\u0131yordu. Oysa Ninesinin fallar\u0131ndaki, d\u00fc\u015flerindeki umutlar\u0131 ye\u015fertip \u00e7o\u011faltmak istemi\u015fti. \u2018Ah, fallarda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz gelecek ya\u015fanabilseydi,\u2019 diye i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7irdi. \u00a0Ama son g\u00fcnlerde Ninesi de hep iyiye yordu\u011fu d\u00fc\u015flerinden s\u00f6z etmez olmu\u015ftu; penceresinden izledi\u011fi kargalar\u0131 al\u0131c\u0131 ku\u015f olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcyor; bu iri, siyah ku\u015flar\u0131n kumrular\u0131, ser\u00e7eleri par\u00e7alad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131yor, bunu da her kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmalar\u0131nda yineleyip duruyordu. Yoksa Hale Han\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015fle ger\u00e7ek aras\u0131nda t\u00fcketti\u011fi ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n sonunda ka\u00e7\u0131namad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir y\u00fczle\u015fmeden mi s\u00f6z ediyordu? Sanki t\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015fler yerlerini birbirine benzeyen karabasanlara b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Sars\u0131nt\u0131yla kendine geldi. Vapur iskeleye yana\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/p>\n Ye\u015fim o g\u00fcn erkenden uyanm\u0131\u015f, kahvalt\u0131y\u0131 \u00f6zene bezene haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Her sabah kap\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 gazeteyi de masan\u0131n bir ucuna koymu\u015ftu. Kocas\u0131 kupkuru bir \u2018g\u00fcnayd\u0131n\u2019 diyerek yerine oturur oturmaz gazeteyi a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, okumaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle davranmazd\u0131. Uzunca s\u00fcredir ayn\u0131 evde ya\u015fayan iki yabanc\u0131 gibiydiler ama, kahvalt\u0131da birbirlerine iki sevdal\u0131ym\u0131\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na seslenirlerdi. Kocas\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6remiyordu. \u00c7aylar\u0131 getirirken g\u00f6z\u00fc gazetenin ba\u015f sayfas\u0131na ili\u015fti: Yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ku\u015fatan sava\u015flardan; yayg\u0131nla\u015fan i\u015fsizlikten, a\u00e7l\u0131ktan s\u00f6z eden ba\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131 okudu. \u00c7ay bardaklar\u0131n\u0131 elinden b\u0131rakmadan sandalyeye y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131rcas\u0131na oturdu. Kocas\u0131 sonunda gazeteyi katlad\u0131, s\u00f6zc\u00fckler a\u011fz\u0131ndan derin bir h\u00fczne bo\u011fularak d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcyordu:<\/p>\n \u201cYe\u015fimci\u011fim, hi\u00e7bir \u015fey kurgulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, umdu\u011fumuz gibi olmad\u0131 de\u011fil mi? Bo\u015funa m\u0131yd\u0131 bunca didinmemiz?\u201d \u00a0Yerinden do\u011fruldu, kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 oturdu\u011fu yerde kucaklayarak, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcne bast\u0131rd\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ok\u015farken, art\u0131k sesi titremeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131:<\/p>\n \u201cB\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u00f6rselenmi\u015flik duygusu i\u00e7inde oldu\u011fumuzu biliyorum. Ne olur birbirimizi su\u00e7lamayal\u0131m. Benim i\u00e7in \u015fu anda tutunabilece\u011fim tek ger\u00e7ek var; o da sana duydu\u011fum sevgi,\u201d diyordu. Darac\u0131k mutfakta birbirlerine sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kalakald\u0131lar\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a020\/Aral\u0131k\/2008<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201cYollar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fc de a\u00e7\u0131k. Ama \u00fc\u00e7 vade i\u00e7inde en sonuncusu i\u00e7in bir \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131 alacaks\u0131n. \u0130\u015fte bunu beklemen gerekiyor. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu haberi al\u0131p da yola koyuldu\u011fun anda b\u00fct\u00fcn o y\u00fcrek kabart\u0131s\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lar sona erecek. Bak istersen, bak y\u00fcre\u011fin ikiye ayr\u0131l\u0131yor, aras\u0131ndan bir g\u00fcne\u015f do\u011fuyor. Bir yan\u0131 puslu, di\u011fer yan\u0131 ayd\u0131nl\u0131k bir y\u00fcre\u011fin var. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc yolu se\u00e7ersen dile\u011fin bir anda yerine gelecek; t\u00fcm s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131lardan kurtulacaks\u0131n. Bir kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine gireceksin. Burada senden \u00e7ok s\u00f6z ediliyor. Baz\u0131 \u015feyleri kendine saklamazsan, kar\u015f\u0131na dikilmi\u015f \u015fu iki ki\u015fi i\u00e7tenli\u011fini k\u00f6t\u00fcye kullanacak. Bak, \u015furada perdelerin arkas\u0131nda iki g\u00f6lge, biri erkek biri di\u015fi\u2026 Onlarla i\u00e7li d\u0131\u015fl\u0131 olmazsan feraha … <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1110,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1061","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-oykuleri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1061","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1061"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1061\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1062,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1061\/revisions\/1062"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1110"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1061"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1061"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1061"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}