Ya\u011fmur alabildi\u011fine ya\u011f\u0131yordu. D\u00fcn geceden beri hi\u00e7 kesilmemi\u015fti. Karak\u00f6y\u2019de lodos \u015femsiyemi tersine d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcnce ba\u015ftan aya\u011fa \u0131slanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. T\u00fcnel\u2019den \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p, kar\u015f\u0131daki pasaj\u0131n giri\u015findeki b\u00f6rek\u00e7iye s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131m. Beyo\u011flu\u2019nun, Sofyal\u0131 soka\u011f\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 erkenden yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Direklerden s\u00fcz\u00fclen ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde ya\u011fmur, karanl\u0131k g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00e7ekilerek kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131na ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f telleri and\u0131r\u0131yordu. Bu parlak tellerin, \u00e7at\u0131lardan, oluklardan g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi, t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131 birbirinden \u00e7ok ba\u015fka seslere kulak verdim. G\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fc daha da yo\u011funla\u015ft\u0131ran bu ezgiyi dinlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Madam i\u00e7in peynirlisinden iki dilim b\u00f6rek ald\u0131m. D\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m, sa\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda ya\u011fmurun dinmesini beklemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Benim Madam bay\u0131l\u0131r hamur i\u015flerine. Oysa ufak tefek, ince yap\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r. K\u0131sa boyuna kar\u015f\u0131n, kamburunu \u00e7\u0131kararak y\u00fcr\u00fcr. Oksijenle iyice beyazla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011farm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131, her zaman da\u011f\u0131n\u0131kt\u0131r. Ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n yerine ince bir rast\u0131k \u00e7eker. Bu yapay ka\u015flar\u0131n alt\u0131ndan bakan el\u00e2 g\u00f6zlerindeki \u00e7ocuksu merak, as\u0131k y\u00fcz\u00fcyle \u00e7ok ilgi \u00e7ekici bir \u00e7eli\u015fkiyi sergiler.<\/p>\n
\u0130ki y\u0131ld\u0131r onun evinde kal\u0131yorum. Kendisinin de kirayla oturdu\u011fu iki odal\u0131 dairenin k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck odas\u0131n\u0131 bana kiralad\u0131. Gazetelerde okudu\u011fum ilanla ula\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m Bayan Lia\u2019ya\u2026 \u00d6nceleri ona \u201cMadam\u201d dedim. Pek ho\u015funa gitmedi. \u00c7ekinceli haliyle her davran\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 izlemekle yetiniyordu. Onunla \u00f6yle uzun uzad\u0131ya konu\u015fam\u0131yordum. Evinin kurallar\u0131n\u0131 saymaktan ba\u015fka, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p iki s\u00f6z etmeyi\u015fi olduk\u00e7a can\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131yordu. \u00d6\u011frenci yurtlar\u0131nda yer bulamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bu y\u00fczden, uzak akrabalar\u0131mdan birinin evinde bir s\u00fcredir s\u0131\u011f\u0131nt\u0131 gibiydim. Madam\u2019\u0131n tersliklerine katlanmak zorunda oldu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. Bir yandan da, onun g\u00fc\u00e7s\u00fcz, ya\u015fl\u0131 bedeniyle ya\u015fama sar\u0131lmas\u0131 bende sayg\u0131 uyand\u0131r\u0131yordu. Odam\u0131n temizli\u011fini yap\u0131yor, \u00e7ar\u015faflar\u0131m\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftiriyordu. Ne var ki, anla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gibi, bir g\u00fcn olsun sabahlar\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcme yiyecek bir \u015feyler koymad\u0131. Eve d\u00f6nerken her g\u00fcn al\u0131\u015fveri\u015fi yap\u0131yor, sevdi\u011fi alaca zeytini, kalorifer radyat\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnde yumu\u015fat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f tereya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 eksik etmedi\u011fim kahvalt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlamadan evden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Beni tan\u0131mas\u0131 i\u00e7in epey bir s\u00fcre gerekti. O eve yerle\u015fmemin be\u015finci ay\u0131yd\u0131. \u00dcniversitedeki eylem sona ermi\u015fti. On g\u00fcnd\u00fcr yatak y\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6rmemi\u015f, Madam\u2019\u0131 da arayamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7eriye girdi\u011fimde, her Per\u015fembe oldu\u011fu gibi, \u00fc\u00e7 arkada\u015f\u0131yla darac\u0131k orta alandaki masan\u0131n \u00e7evresinde oturmu\u015flar, tavandan sarkan tek ampul\u00fcn alt\u0131nda, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sessizlik i\u00e7inde bezik oynuyorlard\u0131. Konuklar\u0131ndan ikisiyle daha \u00f6nce kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Madam, kap\u0131dan girdi\u011fimi g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, kendisinden beklemedi\u011fim bir \u00e7eviklikle yerinden f\u0131rlad\u0131, ellerini omuzlar\u0131ma koydu. Beni kucaklamak istemi\u015f ama boyu yetmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n
\u201cNerelerdeydin?\u201d, dedi, \u201cKa\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr radyonun ba\u015f\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lamad\u0131m. \u00c7ok merak ettim seni.\u201d<\/p>\n
Benimle ilk kez senli benli konu\u015fuyordu. Sa\u00e7\u0131m-sakal\u0131m birbirine kar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. G\u00fcnlerdir y\u0131kanamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. O halimle e\u011fildim, Madam\u2019a sar\u0131ld\u0131m. S\u0131rt\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131vazlarken arkada\u015flar\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fc,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u0130\u015fte benim o\u011flum!\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n
Neler olup bitti\u011fini anlatt\u0131m. G\u00fcpeg\u00fcnd\u00fcz alanlarda, sokaklarda kur\u015funlan\u0131yorduk. \u0130ki g\u00fcn \u00f6nce bir arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131z d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc kattan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 at\u0131larak \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Ayakta duracak g\u00fcc\u00fcm kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130zin isteyerek odama \u00e7ekildim. Nas\u0131l olsa herkesin \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7erek banyoya giremeyecektim. Kendimi yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcne b\u0131rakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte o g\u00fcnden sonra, Madam, bana ya\u015fam \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc anlatmaya ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130lk B\u00fcy\u00fck Sava\u015ftan iki y\u0131l \u00f6nce, ana-babas\u0131yla birlikte Budape\u015fte\u2019den \u0130stanbul\u2019a gelmi\u015fti. O g\u00fcnlerde on yedi ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Evli olan ablas\u0131, e\u015fiyle birlikte \u00e7ok daha \u00f6nceleri bu kente yerle\u015fmi\u015flerdi. Yabanc\u0131 yay\u0131nlar\u0131n bulundu\u011fu bir kitapevleri vard\u0131. Ayr\u0131ca bir Macarca gazete yay\u0131ml\u0131yorlard\u0131. Ablas\u0131yla eni\u015ftesinin vars\u0131l \u00e7evrelerinin deste\u011fiyle bu yabanc\u0131 \u00fclkede pek s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 \u00e7ekmemi\u015flerdi. Gen\u00e7, g\u00fczel Lia, \u0130stanbullu b\u0131\u00e7k\u0131n bir T\u00fcrk\u2019le evlenmi\u015f, sava\u015f patlay\u0131nca da \u00fclkesini bir kez olsun g\u00f6rme umudu kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Art\u0131k kuca\u011f\u0131ndan indirmedi\u011fi, ona mavi\u015f g\u00f6zleriyle bakan bir o\u011flu vard\u0131. \u0130yi bir e\u015f, kusursuz bir anneydi. Ama g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fcn derinliklerinde bir ba\u015fka sevgi k\u00fcllenmek bilmiyor; yasemin kokulu k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlardaki sat\u0131rlar bu sevday\u0131 yak\u0131c\u0131 bir \u00f6zlemle b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn alevlendiriyordu. Macaristan\u2019daki sevgilisi evlendi\u011fini bilmiyor, ona sonsuz bir tutkuyla yaz\u0131yordu. Lia da, kocas\u0131yla i\u015fletti\u011fi \u00e7ama\u015f\u0131rhanenin \u00f6demelerini Galatasaray postanesinden havale ederken, cephedeki bu yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 te\u011fmene de pembe zarflar i\u00e7inde sayfalar dolusu sevda s\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6nderiyordu\u2026 Ayn\u0131 anda iki ayr\u0131 ya\u015fama g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131na kendisini ne denli inand\u0131rmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da, bu karars\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 al\u00e7ak\u00e7a bir iki y\u00fczl\u00fcl\u00fck saymaktan ka\u00e7\u0131nam\u0131yordu. \u0130\u015fte bu gerilim i\u00e7indeyken, yenice \u00f6\u011frenme\u011fe ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131m-yamalak T\u00fcrk\u00e7esiyle kendini azarlard\u0131: \u201cSen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir kahpesin Lia! Bir kahpesin sen…\u201d \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Te\u011fmen Nagy\u2019ye verdi\u011fi s\u00f6z\u00fc tutamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi, yasak a\u015fk\u0131 i\u00e7in iki yanl\u0131 yalanlara da ba\u015fvurmaktayd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Madam, kocas\u0131n\u0131n ona \u2018Leyla\u2019m\u2019, diye seslendi\u011fini anlat\u0131nca, ben de ona \u2018Leyla Han\u0131m\u2019 demeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Onun ya\u015fam \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc dinlemek, benim i\u00e7in ge\u00e7mi\u015fe yap\u0131lan bir geziydi. O\u011flu daha on be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131ndayken, kocas\u0131 kendisini iyice i\u00e7kiye vermi\u015fti. Pera\u2019da her gece ba\u015fka bir kad\u0131nla gezdi\u011fi s\u00f6yleniyordu. Leyla Han\u0131m\u2019\u0131n, sirozdan gen\u00e7 ya\u015fta \u00f6len bu adam\u0131 sevgiyle anmas\u0131na \u00e7ok \u015fa\u015fm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Kocas\u0131n\u0131n \u2018\u00e7ama\u015f\u0131r fabrikas\u0131\u2019 dedi\u011fi i\u015f yeri de sat\u0131ld\u0131ktan sonra, elde avu\u00e7ta kalan k\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131larla ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bu ufac\u0131k kad\u0131n\u0131 daha nice ac\u0131lar bekliyordu. O\u011flu askerden d\u00f6nd\u00fckten sonra uyu\u015fturucunun pen\u00e7esinde kendini t\u00fcketip, ard\u0131nda annesini yoksulluk i\u00e7inde b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O\u011flunun yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bor\u00e7lar y\u00fcz\u00fcnden Tepeba\u015f\u0131\u2019ndaki, Hali\u00e7\u2019e bakan evinden de olmu\u015ftu. Ama o sayg\u0131n bir dul olarak ya\u015fama sar\u0131ld\u0131. Y\u0131llarca eni\u015ftesinin kitapevinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015farak emekli olmu\u015ftu. Alb\u00fcmler dolusu foto\u011fraf\u0131 g\u00f6stererek bu ac\u0131larla dolu \u00f6yk\u00fcy\u00fc anlat\u0131rken, birden zaman g\u00f6stergesini kayd\u0131r\u0131nca, Pera\u2019n\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131 i\u00e7ine s\u00fcr\u00fckledi\u011fimiz de olur. B\u00f6yle anlarda kahkahalar atarken,<\/p>\n
\u201cSen otuz y\u0131l \u00f6nce gelmeliydin de, g\u00f6rmeliydin Leyla\u2019y\u0131!\u201c, derdi. Alb\u00fcmlerin her sayfas\u0131nda bir ba\u015fka \u00f6yk\u00fc kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. \u0130stanbul\u2019un her k\u00f6\u015fesinde \u0130ngiliz askerleriyle sanki yeniden burun buruna gelirdim. \u0130kinci D\u00fcnya Sava\u015f\u0131n\u0131n karneli g\u00fcnlerinde; Varl\u0131k Vergisi Yasas\u0131yla ba\u015flayan ya\u011fma d\u00f6neminde soluk almaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, serseme d\u00f6nerdim. Bir ba\u015fka foto\u011fraf\u0131 elimize ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z anda s\u00f6yle\u015fimiz yerini, derin bir h\u00fczn\u00fcn puslu buruklu\u011funa b\u0131rak\u0131verirdi. 6-7 Eyl\u00fcl olaylar\u0131ndan sonra yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u00f6rt bir yan\u0131na savrulan dostlar\u0131ndan geriye, bu kareler i\u00e7inde terk ettikleri umut dolu bak\u0131\u015flar kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bunca y\u0131ld\u0131r onlardan hi\u00e7bir haber alamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
O g\u00fcnlerde, e\u011fitim e\u015fitsizli\u011fine, Amerikan 6. Filosunun Dolmabah\u00e7e a\u00e7\u0131klar\u0131na demirlemesine kar\u015f\u0131 \u00f6\u011frenci y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015fleri s\u00fcrmekteydi. Kolluk g\u00fc\u00e7lerinin \u00dcniversite alanlar\u0131ndan \u00e7ekilmelerinden sonra, \u2019i\u015fgal\u2019,\u2018boykot\u2019 bi\u00e7imindeki eylemlere son vermi\u015ftik. Yakla\u015fan s\u0131navlar i\u00e7in \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
Zaman\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funu fak\u00fcltede ge\u00e7iriyordum. \u00d6\u011fleden sonralar\u0131 Beyaz\u0131t K\u00fct\u00fcphanesinin lo\u015flu\u011funda, masa\u00fcst\u00fc ayd\u0131nlatmalar\u0131n alt\u0131nda okumak; arada, i\u00e7 avlusunda sigaram\u0131 t\u00fctt\u00fcrerek bir sade kahve i\u00e7mek, benim i\u00e7in \u00e7evreden yal\u0131t\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir mutlulu\u011fa s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmakt\u0131. Hem art\u0131k bir sevgilim vard\u0131. Yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131mda Alev\u2019in varl\u0131\u011f\u0131, i\u00e7imi taptaze umutlarla doldururdu. Onun g\u00fczel ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arkas\u0131na kal\u0131n bir \u00f6rg\u00fcyle b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 sar\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131, k\u00fcf\u00fcrbazl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda somutla\u015fan ba\u015fkald\u0131r\u0131s\u0131 beni b\u00fcy\u00fclemi\u015fti. Alev\u2019in bu erkeksi tav\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131, arkada\u015flar aras\u0131nda, biraz kendisine \u00f6zen g\u00f6steren, makyaj yapan k\u0131zlar\u0131n \u2018burjuvaya \u00f6zenmekle\u2019 su\u00e7lanmalar\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 geli\u015ftirdi\u011fi bir savunma y\u00f6ntemi san\u0131rd\u0131m. Her gitti\u011fimiz yerde onun parkas\u0131n\u0131 giydirmeme, sandalyesini tutarak onu oturtmama \u00f6nceleri sert tepkiler g\u00f6stererek kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f, ama sonra sesini \u00e7\u0131karmaz olmu\u015ftu. Pazar sabahlar\u0131 Saray sinemas\u0131ndaki Belediye Senfoni Orkestras\u0131n\u0131n dinletilerine, ona \u00e7ok yak\u0131\u015fan bordo elbisesinin \u00fcst\u00fcne siyah bir manto giyerek gelmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Cemal Re\u015fit Rey\u2019in y\u00f6netiminde \u0130spanyol kon\u00e7ertosunu dinlerken, kendisine \u00e7ok yakla\u015fan gen\u00e7 solistin keman\u0131n\u0131 dirse\u011fiyle k\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u00fc. Keman\u0131n bo\u015fanan tellerinden \u00e7\u0131kan son ses bir \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131k gibi yank\u0131lanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Cemal Bey bagetini b\u0131rakmadan iki eliyle y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc kapatm\u0131\u015f, dakikalarca \u00f6yle kalakalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Salondaki herkes, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sessizlik i\u00e7inde aya\u011fa kalkarak onun bu derin \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcne kat\u0131l\u0131yordu. Alev o anda kula\u011f\u0131ma, \u201cBana kad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hissettiren sensin\u201d, diye f\u0131s\u0131ldayarak yana\u011f\u0131ma bir \u00f6p\u00fcc\u00fck kondurmu\u015ftu. Onu Leyla Han\u0131m\u2019la tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bu k\u00f6hne apartmandaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck daire, art\u0131k Alev\u2019in de evi olmu\u015ftu. B\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc bir alacakaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde birbirimize sar\u0131larak uyurduk. Pencere \u00f6n\u00fcndeki masan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda ikimizin \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6ren kar\u015f\u0131 kom\u015fular\u0131m\u0131z bize seslenerek ya \u00e7aya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rlar, ya da Madam Ester\u2019in, Madam Violet\u2019in, Matmazel Maria\u2019n\u0131n yapt\u0131klar\u0131 gibi, ellerinde birka\u00e7 dilim turtayla, duman\u0131 t\u00fcten kurabiyelerle kap\u0131ya dayan\u0131rlard\u0131. Sofyal\u0131 soka\u011f\u0131na, oradan da Asmal\u0131mescit\u2019e darac\u0131k bir dehliz gibi a\u00e7\u0131lan Curnal sokakta, nesneler ve canl\u0131lar aras\u0131nda tek yeni olan \u015fey, sevgi dolu ye\u015fil g\u00f6zleriyle \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131lar sa\u00e7an Alev\u2019le ikimiz idik. Bu soka\u011f\u0131 mesken tutmu\u015f g\u00fcvercinler bile bir ba\u015fkad\u0131r: Ta g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn i\u00e7ine bakarak, gurultular\u0131yla size ne denli g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f-ge\u00e7irmi\u015f olduklar\u0131n\u0131 anlat\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n
Baz\u0131 Pazar g\u00fcnleri Leyla Han\u0131m\u2019\u0131n karde\u015fi bizi Tepeba\u015f\u0131\u2019ndaki evlerine kahvalt\u0131ya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Kollar\u0131m\u0131za girerek aram\u0131zda y\u00fcr\u00fcrken, ya\u015fl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn mutlu bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle ayd\u0131nland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Bu bulu\u015fmalarda kitaplardan konu\u015fulur, \u00e7ok ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 bir piyanist olan yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 ye\u011fenin parmaklar\u0131ndan ola\u011fan d\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015f\u0131mlar uyand\u0131ran sonatlar d\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
O gece g\u00fcn ayd\u0131nlan\u0131ncaya dek \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in, kap\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yataktayd\u0131m. Leyla Han\u0131m mutfak diye kulland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, perdeyle ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f b\u00f6lmede kendisine kahve yap\u0131yordu. Ondan \u00f6nce davran\u0131p kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m. Alev, hemen orac\u0131ktaki koltu\u011fa kendini atm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Y\u00fcre\u011finin p\u0131rp\u0131rlan\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 duymak i\u00e7in ona sar\u0131lmama gerek kalmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Oturdu\u011fu yerden g\u00f6zlerini bana dikerek,<\/p>\n
\u201c Babam seninle tan\u0131\u015fmak istiyor. Gelir misin?\u201d, diye sordu.<\/p>\n
Bo\u011faz yolunda g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcyle ilerleyen hantal dolmu\u015fta onunla konu\u015famad\u0131m. Sorular\u0131ma yaln\u0131zca ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 olumlu ya da olumsuz k\u0131m\u0131ldatarak kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k veriyor, s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 tuttu\u011fu elimi arabadan inerken bile b\u0131rakmak istemiyordu. Bebek s\u0131rtlar\u0131na t\u0131rmand\u0131k. Sonunda a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n g\u00f6lgesi alt\u0131nda yitip gitmi\u015f bir evin alt kat\u0131ndayd\u0131k. Burada ne pencere ne de kap\u0131 vard\u0131. Ta\u015ftan, ah\u015faptan yontular, at\u00f6lyenin her k\u00f6\u015fesinde, a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n alt\u0131nda yerlerini alm\u0131\u015flar, bizi g\u00f6zl\u00fcyorlard\u0131. \u0130nsan bedeninin t\u00fcm y\u00f6neli\u015fleri sanki en tutkulu anlar\u0131nda dondurup, topra\u011f\u0131 kuru yapraklarla kaplanm\u0131\u015f bu bah\u00e7ede tutsak edilmi\u015flerdi. Alev,<\/p>\n
\u201cBaba nerdesin?\u201d, diye seslenince, \u00fcst kattan gelen,<\/p>\n
\u201cBuraya gelin\u201d buyru\u011funa uyarak g\u0131c\u0131rt\u0131l\u0131 merdivenden yukar\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k. So\u011fuk esintinin ortas\u0131nda \u00fcst\u00fcnde yaln\u0131zca bir fanila, bir de ask\u0131l\u0131 pantolonla bizi kar\u015f\u0131layan iri-yar\u0131 adam\u0131n yontular\u0131ndaki s\u00f6ylem \u00e7e\u015fitlili\u011finin tersine, y\u00fcz\u00fcnde hi\u00e7bir duygu okunmuyordu.<\/p>\n
\u201cHo\u015f geldiniz\u201d, dedikten sonra bana yer g\u00f6sterdi. \u00dcst\u00fc \u00e7izimlerle, desenlerle dolu b\u00fcy\u00fck masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc biraz toparlarken, benim nereli oldu\u011fumu, daha \u00f6nce hangi e\u011fitimden ge\u00e7ti\u011fimi, ailemi sormaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bile… Bu sorgulamadan bunald\u0131\u011f\u0131m anda, Alev\u2019e d\u00f6nerek,<\/p>\n
\u201cHadi sen bir \u00e7ay demle de i\u00e7elim\u201d dedi. K\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 uzakla\u015ft\u0131rmak istedi\u011fini anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Bana sanki Alev\u2019in g\u00f6zleriyle bakmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ondaki bu de\u011fi\u015fim, sesine de yans\u0131yan sevecen titre\u015fimle iyice a\u00e7\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu. Apak olmu\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n, g\u00fcr ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan ye\u015fil \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131larla beni s\u00fczen g\u00f6zlerinde birden bir kararl\u0131l\u0131k belirdi:<\/p>\n
\u201cSizi b\u00f6yle sorgulamama ald\u0131rmay\u0131n\u201d, dedi, \u201cBa\u015fka yol bulamad\u0131m. Asl\u0131nda k\u0131z\u0131m sizden \u00e7ok s\u00f6z etti. Ama insan\u0131 tan\u0131mak, onunla konu\u015fmay\u0131 gerektiriyor. \u015eimdi s\u0131ra bende, ben anlataca\u011f\u0131m: Alev\u2019in annesini y\u0131llar \u00f6nce yitirdik. Kar\u0131ma duydu\u011fum a\u015fk\u0131, bug\u00fcn de i\u00e7imde b\u00fcy\u00fcterek ya\u015fat\u0131r\u0131m. O gitti\u011finde k\u0131z\u0131m daha alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131. Onu tek ba\u015f\u0131ma b\u00fcy\u00fctt\u00fcm. E\u015fimin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnden sonra kap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6fke, i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa u\u011fram\u0131\u015fl\u0131k duygusu, beni aksi, surats\u0131z biri yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n benim bu tav\u0131rlar\u0131ma \u00f6zenmesine engel olmad\u0131m. Elimden de gelmezdi. Hem o bir erkek gibi yeti\u015firse, ya\u015fama kar\u015f\u0131 daha diren\u00e7li olmaz m\u0131yd\u0131? \u0130\u015fte as\u0131l yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131m b\u00f6yle d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmemdi. Sizin bu g\u00fczel arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z bak nas\u0131l de\u011fi\u015fimlere yol a\u00e7t\u0131. Do\u011fa yarg\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7bir zaman geciktirmez.\u201d<\/p>\n
Alev, elinde tepsiyle i\u00e7eriye girince, babas\u0131 konuyu de\u011fi\u015ftirmi\u015f, kendi \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131ndan, g\u00fcndelik ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131ndan s\u00f6z etmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ne\u015fe i\u00e7inde konu\u015furken iri birer pen\u00e7eyi and\u0131ran elleriyle havaya dans eden bedenler \u00e7iziyor gibiydi.<\/p>\n
Leyla Han\u0131m, evde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fabilmem i\u00e7in elinden gelen her \u015feyi yap\u0131yordu. Geceleri odas\u0131na \u00e7ekilmeden \u00f6nce en g\u00fczel fincanlar\u0131yla \u00e7ay getiriyor, yan\u0131nda da bisk\u00fcviler koyuyordu. Bunun d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla yoklu\u011fu belli de\u011fildi. Benden bekledi\u011fi tek \u015fey, haftada bir g\u00fcn d\u00fczenledi\u011fi o kutsal t\u00f6rene kat\u0131lmamd\u0131. Per\u015fembe g\u00fcnleri, bezik arkada\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 u\u011furlad\u0131ktan sonra, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kurdeleyle ba\u011fl\u0131 bir mektup destesiyle beni masan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda bekliyor olurdu. Nagy\u2019nin mektuplar\u0131yd\u0131 bunlar… Sava\u015f\u0131n sonlar\u0131na do\u011fru ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir \u015farapnel par\u00e7alay\u0131ncaya dek Lia\u2019s\u0131na yazmay\u0131 hi\u00e7 aksatmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Leyla Han\u0131m Nagy\u2019nin s\u00fcslemeli yaz\u0131s\u0131yla sat\u0131rlara d\u00f6kt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u00f6zlemini bana \u00e7evirirken g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 tutmak i\u00e7in, arada bir \u00e7enesini iki yana kayd\u0131rarak derin soluklar al\u0131r, takma di\u015flerini g\u0131c\u0131rdat\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6n\u00fcm\u00fczde vermut bardaklar\u0131n\u0131 okuman\u0131n sonunu kadar bo\u015f b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hi\u00e7 g\u00f6rmedim. Cinzanoyu ard\u0131 ard\u0131na yuvarlard\u0131. Bu tatl\u0131 i\u00e7kiyi sevmezdim ama ona kat\u0131lmak i\u00e7in i\u00e7erdim.<\/p>\n
\u201cSen karanl\u0131k gecelerime do\u011fan mehtab\u0131ms\u0131n. Bense, senin uyurgezerin\u201d, diye yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 Nagy\u2026 Bana okudu\u011fu her desteyi yeniden \u00f6zenle ba\u011flar, termosifonun oca\u011f\u0131nda yakard\u0131. Ne kadar dil d\u00f6ksem, bu mektuplardan hi\u00e7 olmazsa birka\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 saklamama izin vermesini istesem de,<\/p>\n
\u201cHay\u0131r! Bunlar\u0131 benden ba\u015fka okuyan son ki\u015fi sen olacaks\u0131n! \u201c, diyordu Leyla Han\u0131m. Her kutsal t\u00f6renimizin sonunda, birer birer b\u00fct\u00fcn mektup destelerini yok etti.<\/p>\n
Sa\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda esintiyle kam\u00e7\u0131 gibi inen ya\u011fmur, pa\u00e7alar\u0131mdan ak\u0131yor. Neyse ki, \u015fimdi biraz h\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 kesti. B\u00f6rek paketimi \u00e7antama koyuyorum, di\u011fer elimde k\u0131r\u0131k \u015femsiyem… Bakkal\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7erken banyoda su \u0131s\u0131tmak i\u00e7in iki torba haz\u0131r yak\u0131t al\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
Kap\u0131y\u0131 anahtar\u0131mla a\u00e7t\u0131m, i\u00e7eri girdim. Leyla Han\u0131m odas\u0131nda.<\/p>\n
Kap\u0131s\u0131ndaki buzlu camdan d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya vuran \u0131\u015f\u0131k bulundu\u011fum yeri epey ayd\u0131nlat\u0131yor. Tuvalet masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde yanan abajurun alt\u0131nda g\u00f6lgesini g\u00f6rebiliyorum. Aynaya e\u011filmi\u015f, g\u00fczelli\u011finden geriye kalanlar\u0131 aramaktan b\u0131kmayan bir kad\u0131n\u0131n son \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bu g\u00f6lgede \u00f6yle yo\u011funla\u015fm\u0131\u015f ki, bir an olsun izlemek bile yorucu. U\u011fra\u015f\u0131na ara vermeden i\u00e7erden sesleniyor,<\/p>\n
\u201cMerhaba\u2026 Alev u\u011frad\u0131. Sana bir zarf b\u0131rakt\u0131. Masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnde…\u201d<\/p>\n
Y\u00fcre\u011fim a\u011fz\u0131mda, elimdekileri yere b\u0131rak\u0131yorum. Alev\u2019le iki haftad\u0131r pek g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015femiyoruz. Okulda kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, k\u0131sac\u0131k birka\u00e7 s\u00f6zden sonra, \u00e7ok i\u015fi oldu\u011funu, babas\u0131n\u0131n sipari\u015flerini alaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yleyerek yan\u0131mdan uzakla\u015f\u0131yor. \u00a0Geceleri Galatasaray postanesine y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcp, onu her telefonla arad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda babas\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor; daha eve d\u00f6nmedi\u011fini, beni her zaman at\u00f6lyesine bekledi\u011fini s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor.\u00a0 Alev \u00f6ylesine de\u011fi\u015fti ki, onu neredeyse tan\u0131yamayaca\u011f\u0131m. K\u0131sac\u0131k etekler giyiyor. Duman rengi \u00e7oraplar ve sol ayak bile\u011finde bir alt\u0131n zincir. Makyaj onun uzun kirpiklerini \u00f6ylesine b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc birer perdeye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcr\u00fcyor ki, bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 hi\u00e7bir anlama gelmese de beni \u00e7ekti\u011fi yoklu\u011fa s\u00fcr\u00fckleniyorum… Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 iyice uzatm\u0131\u015f, hep bak\u0131ml\u0131. \u00d6rg\u00fcye falan gerek duymadan, bu yal\u0131mlar\u0131 beline kadar sal\u0131veriyor. Zarf\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131yorum. Kocaman harflerle yazm\u0131\u015f:<\/p>\n
\u201c Sevgili can Arkada\u015f\u0131m,<\/p>\n
Bu a\u00e7\u0131klamay\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcne kar\u015f\u0131 yapamad\u0131m. Seni \u00fczmek istemiyorum.<\/p>\n
\u00c7ok g\u00fczel \u015feyler payla\u015ft\u0131k. Ama her \u015feyin bir sonu var.<\/p>\n
Ben ni\u015fanland\u0131m. Art\u0131k eskisi gibi bulu\u015fmam\u0131z do\u011fru olmaz.<\/p>\n
Ne olur yine arkada\u015f\u0131m olarak yan\u0131mda ol.<\/p>\n
G\u00f6zlerinden \u00f6perim.<\/p>\n
Alev \u201c<\/p>\n
\u0130lk i\u015fim, ayakkab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karmak, sonra da termosifonun alt\u0131n\u0131 yakmak. K\u00e2\u011f\u0131d\u0131 masaya b\u0131rak\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
Soyundum. S\u0131rt\u0131mda bornozum, odamdan \u00e7\u0131karken, Leyla Han\u0131m\u2019\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Masan\u0131n arkas\u0131nda ayakta, donup kalm\u0131\u015f gibi\u2026 Elinde Alev\u2019in mektubu; g\u00f6zlerini korkun\u00e7 bir sevecenlikle g\u00f6zlerime m\u0131hlam\u0131\u015f. Uzan\u0131p, elindeki mektubu, masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcndeki zarf\u0131 al\u0131rken,<\/p>\n
\u201c\u0130\u015fte\u201d, diyorum, \u201c bana gelen tek mektup bu.. K\u0131sac\u0131k. \u00dcstelik i\u00e7inde hi\u00e7bir sevgi s\u00f6z\u00fc de yok.\u201d<\/p>\n
Banyonun kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kapatt\u0131ktan sonra oca\u011f\u0131n kapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131yorum, elimdekileri alevlere b\u0131rak\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n
Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 sabunlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0131rada, y\u00fcksek tavandan sarkan lamba fanusunun ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131 al\u00e7\u0131 kal\u0131ptan bir t\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131 duyuyorum. G\u00f6zlerim sabundan yansa da ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yukar\u0131ya \u00e7evirdi\u011fimde, o al\u00e7\u0131 s\u00fcslemenin yerinden yar\u0131 yar\u0131ya ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. Her \u015fey bir anda oluyor. A\u011f\u0131r al\u00e7\u0131 kal\u0131pla koca fanus hemen yan\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor, b\u00fcy\u00fck bir g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcyle par\u00e7alan\u0131yor. K\u00fcvetin i\u00e7inde, karanl\u0131ktay\u0131m. Tavandan h\u0131\u015f\u0131rt\u0131larla \u00fcst\u00fcme, k\u00fcvetin i\u00e7ine bir \u015feyler d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor. Oca\u011f\u0131n kapa\u011f\u0131ndan titre\u015fimler yaparak taban\u0131 ayd\u0131nlatan ate\u015fin \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yerdeki kayna\u015fmay\u0131 biraz olsun g\u00f6rebiliyorum. Art\u0131k ayaklar\u0131mdan bacaklar\u0131ma t\u0131rmanmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan o \u015feylerden kurtulmak i\u00e7in hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yapm\u0131yorum. Leyla Han\u0131m d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan sesleniyor,<\/p>\n
\u201cBir \u015feyin yok ya! Sak\u0131n k\u0131m\u0131ldama. Mum ar\u0131yorum. Sigortalar att\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n
Neden sonra elinde mumla i\u00e7eri girdi\u011finde, tavanda a\u00e7\u0131lan delikten say\u0131s\u0131z b\u00f6ce\u011fin d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kmay\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz. Parmak uzunlu\u011funda, sar\u0131 kanatl\u0131 b\u00f6cekler banyonun her yerinde. K\u00fcvetin i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015fenler kanatlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rparak d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya atl\u0131yor.<\/p>\n
Leyla Han\u0131m beni banyodan \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yor; ila\u00e7lama yapmak, deli\u011fi t\u0131kamak i\u00e7in bakkal R\u00fcstem Efendiden yard\u0131m istemeye gidiyor. Ayaklar\u0131mda cam kesikleri, bornozuma sar\u0131n\u0131p masan\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki koltu\u011fa ili\u015fiyorum..<\/p>\n
C\u0131l\u0131z bir mum \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n lo\u015flu\u011funa terk edilmi\u015fim. Zaman\u0131n durdu\u011funa, bulundu\u011fum yerin neresi oldu\u011funun \u00f6nemsizli\u011fine inanmaya ba\u015fl\u0131yorum… Kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kap\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131nda, t\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131lar gittik\u00e7e \u00e7o\u011falmakta.<\/p>\n
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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a029\/09\/2009<\/p>\n
(Bu \u00f6yk\u00fc \u201cS\u00f6zc\u00fckler\u201d Dergisinin Kas\u0131m-Aral\u0131k 2009 say\u0131s\u0131nda yay\u0131mlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ya\u011fmur alabildi\u011fine ya\u011f\u0131yordu. D\u00fcn geceden beri hi\u00e7 kesilmemi\u015fti. Karak\u00f6y\u2019de lodos \u015femsiyemi tersine d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcnce ba\u015ftan aya\u011fa \u0131slanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. T\u00fcnel\u2019den \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p, kar\u015f\u0131daki pasaj\u0131n giri\u015findeki b\u00f6rek\u00e7iye s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131m. Beyo\u011flu\u2019nun, Sofyal\u0131 soka\u011f\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131klar\u0131 erkenden yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Direklerden s\u00fcz\u00fclen ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde ya\u011fmur, karanl\u0131k g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnden \u00e7ekilerek kald\u0131r\u0131m ta\u015flar\u0131na ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f telleri and\u0131r\u0131yordu. Bu parlak tellerin, \u00e7at\u0131lardan, oluklardan g\u00f6nderdi\u011fi, t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131 birbirinden \u00e7ok ba\u015fka seslere kulak verdim. G\u00fcnbat\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fc daha da yo\u011funla\u015ft\u0131ran bu ezgiyi dinlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Madam i\u00e7in peynirlisinden iki dilim b\u00f6rek ald\u0131m. D\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m, sa\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda ya\u011fmurun dinmesini beklemeye ba\u015flad\u0131m. Benim Madam bay\u0131l\u0131r hamur i\u015flerine. Oysa ufak tefek, ince yap\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r. K\u0131sa boyuna kar\u015f\u0131n, kamburunu \u00e7\u0131kararak y\u00fcr\u00fcr. Oksijenle iyice beyazla\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011farm\u0131\u015f … <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1124,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[11],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1074","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-oykuleri"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1074","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1074"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1074\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1182,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1074\/revisions\/1182"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1124"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1074"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1074"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1074"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}