{"id":1200,"date":"2024-12-27T03:14:33","date_gmt":"2024-12-27T03:14:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/?p=1200"},"modified":"2024-12-27T03:17:04","modified_gmt":"2024-12-27T03:17:04","slug":"ahsap-evin-yankilanan-cagrisi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ziyagurel.com\/index.php\/2024\/12\/27\/ahsap-evin-yankilanan-cagrisi\/","title":{"rendered":"Ah\u015fap Evin Yank\u0131lanan \u00c7a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 <\/span>Nedenini anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 i\u00e7indeydi. Ama her ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyi sil ba\u015ftan izlemekte oldu\u011funu art\u0131k biliyordu. Adlar\u0131n\u0131 de\u011fi\u015ftirerek kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kacak ki\u015filerin art\u0131k kimler olabilece\u011fini de biliyordu. Bu ki\u015filerin \u00e7ok ba\u015fka \u00e7evrede, tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 co\u011frafyalarda kendisine yol arkada\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yapmalar\u0131 beklenebilir miydi?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 Bu i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sonsuz yinelenme iyice anlams\u0131zd\u0131. Ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131 aras\u0131nda sanki kapanm\u0131\u015f, bir ikinci kez a\u00e7\u0131lmayacak defterler \u00e7o\u011funluktayd\u0131. An\u0131lar\u0131na b\u00fcy\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131klar\u0131 olarak yerle\u015fen ba\u015f edemedi\u011fi o pi\u015fmanl\u0131klar da vard\u0131. Ge\u00e7en y\u0131l sona eren ikinci evlili\u011fi de bunlardan biri de\u011fil miydi. Yirmi bir y\u0131l s\u00fcren ilk evlili\u011fini \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi e\u015fiyle mutluluk i\u00e7inde s\u00fcrd\u00fcr\u00fcyorlard\u0131. Yeti\u015fkin iki k\u0131zlar\u0131yla bir b\u00fct\u00fcn olu\u015ftururlarken kar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ya\u015flanmak korkusu bo\u015fanmalar\u0131na yol a\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u0130kinci evlili\u011fini yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa dayanamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in bu bo\u015fanmadan d\u00f6rt y\u0131l sonra yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. B\u00fcy\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7ok ba\u015far\u0131l\u0131 bir i\u015f kad\u0131n\u0131 olmu\u015f, y\u0131llar\u00a0 \u00f6nce kendi evine yerle\u015fmi\u015fti. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck karde\u015fini de yan\u0131na alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bo\u015fand\u0131klar\u0131 i\u00e7in ikisi de annelerine de babalar\u0131na da k\u0131rg\u0131nd\u0131lar. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131 da y\u00fcksek \u00f6\u011frenimini \u015fu s\u0131ralar bitiriyordu. Ama ikisi de anay\u0131 da, babay\u0131 da eskisi gibi aramaz olmu\u015flard\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u0130kinci e\u015fi, gecikti\u011fi evlili\u011finin t\u00fcm gerekenlerini onun gibi ya\u015f\u0131 ilerlemekte olan bir kocayla ger\u00e7ekle\u015ftirece\u011fini sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ocuk da istiyordu. Oysa bu yaln\u0131z adam da\u00a0 ikinci bo\u015fanmas\u0131ndan hemen sonra emekli olmu\u015ftu. Emekli ayl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrmeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Kapatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 evlilik defterleri b\u00f6ylelikle art\u0131k tam anlam\u0131yla defterden silmi\u015fti. \u0130kinci e\u015finin bak\u0131ml\u0131 g\u00fczelli\u011fini, baz\u0131 ak\u015famlar\u0131 \u00e7ay i\u00e7mek i\u00e7in u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kahvede an\u0131msard\u0131. Bu \u00e7ok uzun s\u00fcrmeyen beraberlikten ne denli yoruldu\u011funu b\u00f6yle anlarda daha iyi anl\u0131yordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u00c7al\u0131\u015fma ya\u015fam\u0131nda yine de kendine zaman ay\u0131rabilmi\u015fti. Yay\u0131nlar\u0131, sergileri izler, ele\u015ftirileri okurdu. Bug\u00fcn de kendisini arayan sanat\u00e7\u0131, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr ayd\u0131nlardan olu\u015fan bir \u00e7evre edinmeyi bilmi\u015fti; bu \u00e7evreyi koruyabilmi\u015fti.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 Art\u0131k tek yak\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131, i\u00e7ine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc \u015fu koyu yaln\u0131zl\u0131kt\u0131. Denize inen sokak \u00fcst\u00fcnde babas\u0131ndan kalan iki katl\u0131 evin \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 seslere bir anlam veremiyordu. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sesleri \u00e7o\u011falt\u0131yordu, ya da durmadan yenilenen, katlar\u0131 ve a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131klar\u0131 artan ana soka\u011f\u0131n iniltisi kendi yak\u0131nmalar\u0131yla birle\u015ferek kendine g\u00f6re tek yataktan akar olmu\u015ftu. \u00c7o\u011fu geceleri b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f uykularla ge\u00e7iriyordu. Uykusunu alamadan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu yata\u011f\u0131ndan. \u0130ki katl\u0131 evi olduk\u00e7a y\u0131pranm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bunu dile getirmek istemese de bu evin eski ah\u015fap par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 sesler kendisine yabanc\u0131 gelmese ne iyi olacakt\u0131. Ama bu babadan kalma yap\u0131n\u0131n yak\u0131nmalar\u0131ndan \u00fcrkmemeyi ba\u015faram\u0131yordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u201cAhh!.. \u015eu zaman boyutunun neresinde boy g\u00f6sterdi\u011fimi kestirebilsem. O yetenek bana verilmi\u015f olsa\u201d, diyordu i\u00e7inden. \u0130\u015fte o zamanlar \u00e7ok yak\u0131ndan tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u00a0 \u201cyaln\u0131z adam\u201d dostumun a\u011fz\u0131yla nice anlat\u0131mlar\u0131n, anlamlar\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 aralanabilece\u011fine inanmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6yk\u00fc yazar\u0131 dostu o yaln\u0131z adam ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n en olmad\u0131k anlar\u0131nda kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131k\u0131veriyordu i\u015fte.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u00a0Yinelenen bir ya\u015fam \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc bitmeyen bir anlat\u0131ma d\u00f6kmek nas\u0131l bir \u00e7aresizlikti?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u201cO\u011fulcu\u011fum!\u201d diye seslenmi\u015fti annesi. On bir ya\u015flar\u0131nda idi. O s\u0131rada babas\u0131n\u0131n getirdi\u011fi \u00e7i\u00e7ek fidelerini arka bah\u00e7eye dikmekle u\u011fra\u015f\u0131yordu. Annesi ellerinde bir bardak \u00e7ayla, bir taba\u011fa kodu\u011fu f\u0131r\u0131ndan yeni \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kokusundan anla\u015f\u0131lan kurabiyelerle bu arka bah\u00e7eye a\u00e7\u0131lan kap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yordu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u201cHaydi, yorulmu\u015fsundur dinlen biraz,\u201d dedi.\u00a0 Kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k beklemeden ellerindekileri kenardaki k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck masaya b\u0131rak\u0131rken,<\/span>\u00a0 \u201cYaz tatilin ba\u015flad\u0131. Seni denize g\u00f6t\u00fcrmemi istemez misin?\u00a0 Babanla onun d\u00fcn suya att\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yledi\u011fi sandalla biraz a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131p \u015fu y\u00fczmeyi biraz daha ilerletmen \u00e7ok iyi olacak\u201d diyordu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 \u201cTamam, olur. Gideriz anac\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u201d demi\u015fti.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 Annesi bu k\u0131y\u0131 kentinde do\u011fup b\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. Y\u00fczmeyi de, dalmay\u0131 da bilirdi. Babas\u0131 ise, Orta Anadolulu bir maden m\u00fchendisi idi. Buraya atand\u0131ktan sonra denizle, bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131l\u0131kla u\u011fra\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, sonradan b\u00fcy\u00fck\u00e7e bir bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 teknesi edinmi\u015fti. Zamanla bu b\u00fcy\u00fck teknenin tayfa tak\u0131m\u0131 olu\u015fmu\u015f, avc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya\u015famlar\u0131n\u0131 kazanabildikleri bir gelir kap\u0131s\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015flerdi. Bu b\u00fcy\u00fck tekneyle, a\u011flarla av yasa\u011f\u0131 o g\u00fcnlerde pek yayg\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlar oldu\u011fundan arada bir annemlerin arkada\u015flar\u0131yla koylarda gezilere \u00e7\u0131kmalar\u0131nda da kullan\u0131l\u0131yordu. Koylarda kurduklar\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u00e7ad\u0131rlarda bar\u0131nmak; babalar\u0131n su alt\u0131 fenerleriyle gece av\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmalar\u0131 hep g\u00fczel an\u0131lar\u0131 aras\u0131ndayd\u0131. Bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sandal ise, babas\u0131n\u0131n buraya atand\u0131ktan sonra hafta sonlar\u0131nda bal\u0131k av\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 dayan\u0131kl\u0131 bir tekneydi. \u0130\u015fte bu ortamda o da tam bir denizci ve de bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 olmu\u015ftu. Ama e\u011fitim konusu yaz\u0131nla ele\u015ftiri olunca yay\u0131mc\u0131l\u0131kta karar k\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 Arka bah\u00e7enin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n hemen \u00f6n\u00fcne yerle\u015ftirdi\u011fi k\u00fcfl\u00fc masay\u0131 z\u0131mparalay\u0131p boyam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yan\u0131na bir de kal\u0131n minderli plastikten a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r kapan\u0131r bir koltuk koymu\u015ftu. \u0130\u00e7i ge\u00e7erken annesinin sesini duyar gibi olmu\u015f, ona sevgiyle kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131k vermeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ocuklu\u011funa d\u00f6nmek ne b\u00fcy\u00fck mutluluktu.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0 Bir hafta sonunda e\u015fine, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck k\u0131zlar\u0131na kahvalt\u0131 haz\u0131rl\u0131yordu. Bahar o sevecen kucaklay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6stermeye ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Anneleri de k\u0131zlar\u0131 da uyanmam\u0131\u015flard\u0131. C\u0131v\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst kattan birden y\u00fckselmesiyle evin i\u00e7inde bir \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131 dola\u015fmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f gibiydi. Ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilemiyordu. Her \u015feyi yeniden ya\u015famaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 art\u0131k iyice anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

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